Doesn’t it appear in life that the grass is always greener on the other side?  That’s how I feel lately.  I’m a 34 year old single woman who wants to have a family in the worst way.  Not just a family,  I want all of the stuff that comes with it.  I don’t want to do this alone.  I want a man who will love me for who I am and put up with my flaws.  I want to experience the joy and pain of child birth.  I want to have a house.  People with whom I talk to say to me “Jenny, you are lucky you aren’t married”.  I don’t feel lucky.  I feel stuck.  I’m sufficating. 

I no longer like my job.   I have been at the same job for over 2 years, but doing the same line of work for 10.  I realized with the Christmas break we get, that this is not what I want to do.  So change it, you say?  Easier said than done.  What do I do?  How do I afford to live? 

I know it seems like a lot of whining, and i’m really sure people aren’t even reading this, but this is where i’m going to go.  It’s nice to be able to spill it out without drama surrounding me or people talking about it.

So what do you think world?